One Year Ago Today

It occurred to me this morning that I could not remember what I was doing on this date one year ago. If I know me, I was probably worried that I had everything done, everything ready, and making sure Jase was going to be okay while Jason and I were away for a couple nights. I do remember not being scared or nervous that my life was about to change in a big way. I was no longer going to be the mother of one little boy, but two. I honestly was not scared. If anything, I went into motherhood for the second time a little confident. I was confident that I could handle anything from late night feedings to sharing my love evenly between the boys. Little did I know this new little boy was going to throw every curve ball my way!

Today, I sit here and wonder why I was not scared! Why was I not scared to have TWO boys? I was just getting the hang of one boy when God blessed me with another! Today, I remember the excitement I felt as I was awaiting the arrival of our baby. I remember the excitement of not knowing what to expect from having two boys. I suppose this is what kept the fear at bay.

Tomorrow my Coley turns 1! Today I will spend making final preparations to make his day special. His birthday cake is ordered and tonight after he goes to bed we'll put out balloons. Tomorrow is going to be great!

I am going to quit crying...for now!